"Sometimes in life
You just get to the point
Where you realize
That where you are is all wrong
Like driving in the reverse on a one way street
Even though everything around you
Clearly attempts to compel you to straighten yourself out
by just turning around.
It should not have taken years of going the wrong way
Against the grain of your own mind
For you to realize that
You have given more of you to somone or something
Who could never pay you back
No money represents
the core of you --- your soul".
Even as I reflect back on this particular poem, I am easily reminded of days in my own life where I experienced loss and regret simultaenously. If you find yourself in this place, you feel as if a virtual brick has fallen out of the sky and caused you to suddenly realize the entirety of who you are as a person. You are then able to see clearly and most times you find that bits and pieces of your very essence have been haphazardly dispersed to people, places, or things that deducted from your self worth. In my view, this place can become a habitual landing page that you circle back to when you feel depleted or just don't have anything left to give.
Even if you find yourself in this place, there is still hope. You have to be willing to push past what you see in the now. Past mistakes may have created a temporary set-back, but you have to be willing to bounce back to you were created to be. The word of God says that you are made in the image of Christ and that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Yet, if you find yourself circling back to places of regret, you will not live to the full potential of who you are in God's image. Do not forget how much he loves you. Do not forget who you are in Christ and allow the side effects of the latest trial to change your position in Christ.
So, I challenge you in this moment....no matter what you are facing...no matter what you may believe about yourself....no matter how hopeless things may seem....no matter what you feel you have left to give...no matter if you see your destiny and believe it.....I challenge you to give God your unbelief. I challenge you to have faith in him for one more day....I challlenge you to get on your knees one more time. I challenge you to cry out to him like you've never cried out before. I challenge you to close the door of your familiar lonely place for the last time and tell that place and anyone who exists there that you will not be back. I challenge you to believe that you shall LIVE and not DIE!. Do not give in so that you give up. Allow this day of surrendering to God to be the greatest day of your life.
Be so encouraged....you are asking the right questions....you are asking "How did I get here?" Now wait for the answer...and then let God lead you to your next place.
Gina Dacus - speaker, author, prophetic artist who desires to pour out every God given gift for the duration of her life - there are no limitations in Christ!